The more I think about and reflect upon my life, my past, my childhood, my past loves, the more I recognize what a life means/can mean.
It's just a series of events, strung together.
There were (are) so many possibilities. Life would have been very different if I pursued acting no matter what. If I stayed with X, or Y, or continued on with Z. But I am with E (and grateful for the depth of growth that comes with it/this/him.)
If I had stayed in New York.
If I let Paris go
--too risky
If I didn't move to Tucson.
But instead
stayed in France
or moved to
...(where???)...
So many options.
So many choices.
It's like those "choose your ending/adventure" books...
You can't go back.
Only forward.
Only forward.
Only face the future.
Face the day.
Move on.
Accept
and go forth
Into
the
DAY.
That's all we have - TODAY.
So, with that, I'll continue my morning reflections, finish the little coffee I have left. And get IN TO my DAY.